Try these statements on for size.
"I am so talented that I can barely stay in my body. I gotta take my brilliance for a walk." ~ Carolyn Myss
It makes you smile, maybe even chuckle, but you can sense it. It is lurking inside, but afraid to shine.
It takes as much self esteem to find your brilliance as it does to confront your shadow.
Another favorite quote of mine is from Marianne Williamson:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate,”
Williamson writes in A Return to Love:
“Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. Who are you not to be brilliant."
It seems funny but it takes as much energy to recognize what you must give this world as it does to see that you have low self-esteem. So, are the ego and self-esteem in battle? I think they are simply different sides of an aspect of yourself.
Pay attention to how you react to a compliment to a new painting. You are so talented, and you react with an automatic response of: "oh no it's terrible". Do not go on and tell the beautiful human that just complimented your work how wrong they are. When you make all the excuses about how this and that is not right, you invalidate their opinion. Now no one is happy. Try this; smile and say thank you.
It takes courage to look at your shadow. Why is it so hard for us to take pride in our accomplishments? I find self-denial can keep you stuck in a place of familiarity. Accepting your brilliancy may make you uncomfortable because it means that others may expect this of you all the time. What if my painting that just won a prize is a fluke? What if I can’t ever make another one as good? What if I never sell another work of art? The fraud fear is creeping in.
But you are good enough and perfection is not necessary. Be courageous enough to question the authorities. Ask yourself the questions that will develop your self-esteem. The ego risks reprimands to the self-esteem.
Self-esteem is the managing branch of the tempestuous ego. The guiding force is your spirit and trust in knowing that you do not need to be perfect. Falling and getting up time and again is what makes you successful. Practice doing what you love, and you will be happy and inspire others around you to do the same. The ego is not bad; it’s just how you use your ego that determines your path. Expand your creative expression by being open to that vulnerable place of receptivity. If you are receptive, you are primed to new ideas. Move past that deepest fear and embrace your power.
Here are a few questions to ask yourself:
What areas of your life bring you down and why?
What would your life feel like if you proceeded as if you were brilliant?
Whose approval do you need and why?
Train yourself to be aware and accountable. Tune into your fabulous self and when in doubt, take that brilliance out for a walk.